The Unfillable Glass

Every now and then I look again at what I want. It isn't too frequent, often it comes when my body is tired but my mind is not and I scroll through everything I have and everything I want, see what matches, find the gaps or illogicalities and see if there is a way around them.
Oftentimes I find that my life is more or less on point to how I feel it should be though strangely what I think it should be changed so often that I am bewildered how I so unconsciously keep up with myself.
But now a new, discouraging realization has brought itself before me and what is seen cannot be unseen in this case. I know sometimes that what I want is to be "one of the good guys", one of the people who fall in love and are fallen in love with. This is see as true forever in my mind so long as I think about it. But I know that if I achieve nothing but that in my life I will be plagued by regret. And so I strive for more, to be known to contribute something to people's lives, those I don't know, in a way which will exist long after I do. This is possible I think, but simultaneously I see that it is impossible to satisfy everyone for we are not all of the same nature and disposition, and short of having a personal impact on each and every person I effect I doubt I will ever be able to convince everyone of the same thing.
They say a "boo" is louder than a cheer and this is sad to think but also true. I hope never to acquire any "boo"s but I fear this is impossible, for if nobody else does, I myself will.

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I Love

It is prudent to never trust the things,
Who deceived us once before,
To run a mile the other way,
Keeping eyes down to the floor.
But at some point we must look up
And see the post ahead,
A sign which reads this one is good,
And will be never fully bled.

I trust my instincts to inform
That I am done for good,
But not this time, I'll love again,
A girl who makes me feel like I should,
What I ought to have in life,
A comrade there forever,
Someone I love, or maybe will,
The one to whom I thether.

I know not that I love her yet,
Only that I might,
I do know that I think of her a lot,
Even when she's out of sight,
And someday soon I think I'll know,
If what I feel is love,
It's what I want for evermore,
My being alone's enough.

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Found

I could walk along these tracks tonight,
Never look back,
Never look back,

Walk off the edge of the world tonight,
Gotta know that,
Gotta know that,

If I ever reach the end tonight,
You will find me,
You will find me,

D

on't forget me,
T

onight.

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What do I do now?

I think that I might love her,
But I might love him too,
And maybe I love neither,
Because love is so untrue.

In my humble little life,
I've never been convinced,
That people's love is based on fact,
Or that it even exists.

I know I know so little,
I'm so young after all,
But love it seems so... Pointless?
Is it really worth the fall?

At first it feels like magic,
But it just won't linger on,
It won't be there forever,
Before it's felt, it's gone.

I don't know what I'm feeling,
Love feels too extreme,
And I want to shag her neighbor,
Cos he is just so reem.

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